Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Thank you for your prayers, Natalie and Josh's wedding was just perfect

I've been wanting to sit down all week long to let you know that Natalie and Josh's wedding went perfect. They looked gorgeous and so did the rest of the family. Luke had a good day and did fine in the wedding. Thank you so much for your prayers the ceremony was amazing and the day although very busy was just wonderful!

Mr. & Mrs. Joshua Thomure

We put our last guest on the plane today. We had a very busy, but extremely fun week. Most days we had at least 3 to 18 extra people in our home at all times. I took some of Josh's family to Mt. Rainier on Thursday and it was an absolutely beautiful day to show off "Our Mountain" as we lovingly refer to it. Friday Gordy took a huge group up to Seattle to check out Pike's Place Market and to get some fresh fish for lunch that day. All in all everything went smoothly and wonderfully.

We are still adjusting to the fact that Natalie is married, I think it will take some time to really realize that she is not coming back home. She lived in this home for all her 20 years of life. I am so proud of the young lady that Natalie has turned out to be, even though some think her too young to be married, we know that she is definitely ready and mature enough for marriage. I remember asking her one day what she was looking forward to most about getting married and she replied that she looked forward to putting together and decorating her home. She is a wonderful cook, a proficient house cleaner, very talented piano player and teacher, a servant and most of all a beautiful wife that adores her husband. Gordy and I could not be more proud of her if we tried. We are also so very happy about her choice of husband, we know he adores her and will be a great and Godly husband.

To change the subject a bit I just wanted to let you know that I'm back to reality of life on Friday when I take Luke into the hospital for his Baclafen pump trial. We will need to be at the hospital at 7 a.m. and will be spending close to 8 hours there. Please be praying that I will have a peace about taking him to the hospital, I will be honest it terrifies me to think about all the germs and people we will be in contact with. Also please pray that we will have a definite answer to whether or not we should put Luke through another surgery, if it will truly help him with his extremely bad muscle tone issues it will definitely be worth it, but it is not something that I want to do as he has already had way to many surgeries for a little guy of six.

Thank you once again for your prayers,
Luke's Mommy Suzi

Monday, September 21, 2009

I'm waiting on the Lord for my strength today:}

So here I sit at my computer wishing like anything I could get up and do some of the much needed chores I need to get done today. My back is out of whack again, I look like a crooked old lady. We are in wedding plans up to our neck, Natalie and Josh's wedding is this Saturday. Tomorrow my wonderful friend Mary and her two daughters are coming for the wedding, I had planned to take them to the fair after picking them up from the airport. Hoping and praying that I will be able to do that with my back the way it is right now. The next day Josh's family begin to come and will continue to come in until the wedding. I am in desperate need of a miraculous touch from Jesus for my back.

Here is Luke flying his kite, he did a great job holding onto it!

I realize its been awhile since I've blogged. We've been very busy, we went camping to the Oregon coast at the end of August and had to come home a day early because Luke was sick. I was pretty sure he had pneumonia, but Praise God the Dr. said it was not pneumonia, only some virus he caught. I gave him a few more days to get better and after 5 days of fever, high heart rate and extra oxygen needs we began an antibiotic. He has been doing better this week. I have the biggest prayer request that I think I've ever had, would you please be praying that Luke will be healthy on the day of the wedding, he along with Ezekiel are going to be the ring bearers. Zeke will push Luke down the aisle in his wheelchair with Luke holding the rings on his lap. It would be so wonderful if Luke was then able to stay in for the remainder of the ceremony. My prayer is that he will be breathing wonderful that day and that my sister will not have to take him out.

Here's some honesty for y'all, as you know this blog is my journal of our journey that began 5 long, anguishing years ago, I have been struggling with some extremely deep depression this year. I'm pretty sure it began during the beginning of the year when Luke was so sick and I would sit by his bed each evening hoping and praying that he would get through the night to see another day. Something about hitting the 5th anniversary of his drowning accident has been excruciatingly hard. Then knowing that Natalie is getting married, which I'm so very happy about, though at the same time knowing that some of my help is leaving me, is so hard.

I know, that I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, but many days lately I feel like I'm losing my hope. There is a verse in the Bible that say's hope deferred makes the heart sick, my heart feels sick. Don't worry I know that I will not stay this way for long, I can't it goes against my very nature, I know that God will bring me up and out of this pit, He's done it before and He will do it again. I often feel guilty for feeling this way because I know that I have so much to be thankful for and because I know that if I truly gave this to God He would change it. Why am I telling you all of this, why share my deepest hurts with people out there in blogland, why am I being so honest with you all??? My deepest desire is that by sharing this with you out there that once again you will pray, but that is not the only reason, I know without a shadow of a doubt this is a season I need to get through and once I do I will be stronger, able to pray for others going through the same feelings with empathy and compassion. I also know that God takes us through fire to refine us and draw us closer to Himself and knowing this gives me strength and hope knowing that I can pray with faith for those that are on this same journey.

I leave you today with the scripture I have been quoting a lot lately: Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. Psalm 27:14 I'm waiting on the Lord for my strength. Hope you are too:}

Love in Christ,
Luke's Mommy Suzi