So here I sit at my computer wishing like anything I could get up and do some of the much needed chores I need to get done today. My back is out of whack again, I look like a crooked old lady. We are in wedding plans up to our neck, Natalie and Josh's wedding is this Saturday. Tomorrow my wonderful friend Mary and her two daughters are coming for the wedding, I had planned to take them to the fair after picking them up from the airport. Hoping and praying that I will be able to do that with my back the way it is right now. The next day Josh's family begin to come and will continue to come in until the wedding. I am in desperate need of a miraculous touch from Jesus for my back.
I know, that I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, but many days lately I feel like I'm losing my hope. There is a verse in the Bible that say's hope deferred makes the heart sick, my heart feels sick. Don't worry I know that I will not stay this way for long, I can't it goes against my very nature, I know that God will bring me up and out of this pit, He's done it before and He will do it again. I often feel guilty for feeling this way because I know that I have so much to be thankful for and because I know that if I truly gave this to God He would change it. Why am I telling you all of this, why share my deepest hurts with people out there in blogland, why am I being so honest with you all??? My deepest desire is that by sharing this with you out there that once again you will pray, but that is not the only reason, I know without a shadow of a doubt this is a season I need to get through and once I do I will be stronger, able to pray for others going through the same feelings with empathy and compassion. I also know that God takes us through fire to refine us and draw us closer to Himself and knowing this gives me strength and hope knowing that I can pray with faith for those that are on this same journey.
I leave you today with the scripture I have been quoting a lot lately: Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. Psalm 27:14 I'm waiting on the Lord for my strength. Hope you are too:}
Love in Christ,
Luke's Mommy Suzi