Thursday, December 17, 2009

God has not given me a spirit of fear and I am trying so hard not to live in fear today, but it is challenging to say the least.

I'm trying so hard not to let fear over take me today. I decided to read more about the possible side effects of BOTOX injections into kids with CP last night and today I keep praying for peace. As I mentioned before Luke started getting "junky" almost immediately following his injections, he has been needing to be suctioned a lot more lately and having a hard time clearing his throat. With the fever, higher needs for oxygen and his heart rate all over the place, it's been a few stressful days. I knew that kids had died recently after BOTOX injections, but his Dr. assured me that he was giving Luke a little under the recommended dose for someone his size and weight. I just keep hoping and praying that what ever he is dealing with will all go away soon.

I did take him into the Dr. yesterday and he said his lungs sounded fine and he didn't think that he had pneumonia, I was so relieved to hear this. But today he keeps coughing up thick yellowish, greenish goop and is still struggling so after consulting with the Dr. we decided to start him on an antibiotic. I also talked to the Dr. that did the injections and he thought that what Luke is dealing with is not related to the BOTOX injections, but he couldn't say that for sure. He said that if he continues to struggle and we find out that he does have pneumonia he wants Luke admitted into the Hospital. I told him that Luke has not been admitted in the Hospital for years just because of pneumonia, but he told me that if what he is dealing with is related to the BOTOX then we need to keep a closer eye on him for awhile.

I'm praying as I know many of you are that Luke makes a speedy recovery, as he has so often done, I realize this could happen within minutes to hours and that is what I'm hoping for. God has not given me a spirit of fear, but He has given to me a spirit of love, courage and a sound mind! That is what I'm clinging to today:}

Love in Christ,
Luke's Mommy Suzi

6 comments:

Kate said...

Praying for healing and comfort for sweet Luke, clarity and wisdom for the doctors, and peace for you, Suzi!! I hadn't checked Luke's blog in a couple of days and decided to pop over here after reading your comment just now (THANK YOU). I was so sorry to see that he is sick and struggling again. He is very close in age to our Sarah and I think of him so often when I see her. I know we haven't met, but I sure do love your little guy and count you as a friend.

Blessings,
Kate
www.homeschoolblogger.com/ourquiverfull

pam said...

Hold fast to love, it is all around you. let it lift your heart and spirit. Love, Pam

Michelle said...

We're having pretty bad congestion and head colds here. It might just be the gunk going around. Emily had lots of botox and no congestion with it. I'll be praying.

hugs from here,
Michelle & girls

Sigrun said...

I hope Luke is recovering again.
I have been worrying since your last posts. I think that means I should pray more for him.

God bless your family.

Teena said...

Praying....

Didn't see this right away...wondering how he is.

Lifing you uP..lifting LUKE up to HIM.

Teena said...

Thinking of you tonight

Merry Christmas!

Grace, grace...God's grace....