Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Bittersweet Days, Filled with Baby Showers:-), oxygen alarms, Wedding details:-), oxygen alarms, A family dinner:-) and even more oxygen alarms.

Thank you so much for your prayers for Luke, he seems to be getting better, better every day. He continues to need oxygen, but way less than before, thank goodness. Nights continue to be the biggest challenge of my life, last night he was needing quite of bit of oxygen once again, he continues to drop way too low, then we go move him and adjust his cannula which falls out of his nose/mouth and then he goes back up again. Some days it's a miracle that Gordy and I are able to get out of bed. We were both shocked when we woke up at 11 on Saturday, I guess we were exhausted and needed the sleep though getting up that late wreaked havoc on my way too busy day. 

Penelope with both Grandma Sue and Grandma Cindy
Saturday I hosted a shower for my newest Grand baby girl Penelope and her mama Sarah, we had a great time and she was showered with some great gifts and so many cute dresses. It was the last shower this summer, after 3 bridal showers for my niece, 2 bridal showers for Amy, 1 baby shower for Natalie and Abigail and then the shower on Saturday, I feel a bit showered out:-) But am so glad we were able to bless all we did this past summer.
Here's Uncle Luke putting Penelope to sleep, he loves holding his new baby girl neice
Sunday Gordy and I woke up late again and we knew there was no way we could make it to church by 10 am, so we decided to go visit Life Center which happens to started at noon, worked out perfect and it was so nice to go to church together, that doesn't happen often. 

This week is a whirlwind of activity, today Monday I decided to have all my children over for dinner, so I cooked a big dinner with ham, twice cooked potatoes, homemade cream corn and Caesar salad, yes it was delicious and very fattening:-) This will be our last dinner together with all the kids for quite some time because of course once Amy and Lance get married they are taking off for their honeymoon in Florida and while they are gone Josh will be moving all their household items to Missouri, Natalie will be flying later in the month with Abigail. We are so blessed to be very close with our children, we really do enjoy spending time together with all of them, which makes saying good bye to them so very hard. I've known they were moving now since the beginning of the year and you would think that I would of come to terms with the fact that they are leaving but no, it's just not going to be easy to say good bye.

It's been a very emotional time for me lately, it's a rare day that I don't at least shed a few tears, between saying good bye to Josh, Natalie and Abigail and then having Amy get married and move away, I'm finding it hard to imagine life without them around. I'm sooooo very happy for my children, but it's so hard to see them leave. Here's some real honesty for you, sometimes I feel like everyone in my life gets to move on with their lives and here Gordy and I are left still dealing with some extremely tough days caring for Luke 24/7. We have been so very blessed by having our girls be so much a  part of our daily lives, they have sacrificially given of their time and have blessed us on so many occasions, to say I'm thankful for their help would be the biggest understatement of my life. I keep thinking how am I going to go on with out them here, then I feel bad like I don't ever want them to think that I in anyway want their lives to stop just so they can continue to help us. So here we go encouraging them to make new lives for themselves, hoping and praying that they will find wonderful and joyful times in their future. So how many of you are thinking that I'm selfish to be thinking this way ??? The only reason I even wrote this out is because it's my blog and I try to keep it "real" here. 

The rest of the week looks to be soooooooooo incredible busy. Tuesday and Wednesday are days that I will be shopping to buy all the food for the desert reception, plus on Wednesday we will be getting mani/pedi's done:-) Thursday I have a few friends coming over to help cut up fruit for the the reception and help to prepare the food for the wedding party the day of the wedding. Friday is the wedding and we have to have everyone ready and at the church by 3:00 for pictures to begin. I'm so thankful for my sister Cindy and Alexis who are both helping me care for Luke this week, there is no way I'd be able to get it all done without their help. 

Will you please pray that Luke will continue to get better and that his need for extra oxygen will fade away and for him to stop alarming all night long. Also for me to stop crying all the time, I by nature am not a cryer so it's driving me crazy to be so emotional all the time.And last but not least for all the final details to fall into place for Amy's wedding on Friday.

Thank you,
Luke's Mommy Sue


Anonymous said...

Thanks for sharing so honestly, that way people who don't know you personally are able to pray specifically for you. No wonder you're shedding some tears, a lot of stress/losses right now. Be gentle, patient and kind to yourself. Congrats on the beautiful new grandbabies.

ShaunaQ said...

It's okay to cry. You have very good reasons! And you are so selfless and loving, Sue. Of course you want ALL your babies to be okay and close to you. What mother wouldn't? I so appreciate your honesty. I, too, feel indifferent about the future. But I know Christian's life will be limited so we try to make the best of every single day. There will be a time for moving on, whether it is because we all received the miracle we've been praying for or because our babies finally go home to God.

Love you, Sue.

Anonymous said...

You are so loved here!! Blessings to you and will continue to pray! Kelley Ahearn

♥ Naomi ♥ said...

No, not selfish. Totally normal. I pray for a good week for Luke and all of you. But it would be weird if it wasn't hard and you didn't grieve.

Laraba (on my daughter's account!)